Friday, 24 December 2010

Random Rambling Series...Little Things

8:05am on the 24th of December, I've been up for three hours doing a lot! Actually, that's a lie. I've been up for three hours yapping on twitter and listening to Invincible by Tinie Tempah ft Kelly Rowland... In other words I just spent three hours doing absolutely nothing and so it just occurred to me that I could actually update my random rambling series. As usual I have nothing to write about, I have been toying with the thought of writing on the topics "Is it worth It?" but then I asked myself if its worth it? so I settled for "Little things". This may as well be my most personal (BORING) post and maybe not so random so I'd warn you to read and ask no questions. Some references may actually be about you and if you think its about you, then it most likely is about you. Now I've got your attention because you'd want to read to the end and find out if I'm gonna talk about you. oh well!!! Eat your heart out.

2009 was better than 2010 for me. In 2009 I was fortunate enough to complete an Msc in Computer Forensics which is the hardest thing I've ever tried in my life (and I wanna do a Phd), I was the model for Multilinks Telkoms top up card and I wasn't even in Nigeria to sort that out neither did I need long legs to do anything. I got a job immediately after I finished school which I held on to for 3 months then quit because I was bored of doing the same thing everyday. It took me six months to understand that no one is "really" happy with his/her job as much as they claim to enjoy it (ask around). It just occurred to me after 6months of being voluntarily unemployed that the job you have and hate may just be one of the little things I'm trying to talk about. Some people won't mind earning half of what you earn while they do double the work. We complain a lot and in most cases we are just being lazy. I'm guilty of complaining too much too. for instance, I've been whining about having the flu for a week now and too be honest if it was someone else I'd be pretty irritated about it cos I'm not the first to have the flu. to be fair I've never felt this useless and helpful and It has been a tough week.

We take a lot of things for granted, for example, you never know or appreciate the gift of life until you lose someone close to you. You never appreciate good health until you are ill and something as simple as opening your mouth to eat becomes very difficult. Enough about illness, lets talk about YOU! You are very petty! everything pisses you off, you are quick to judge people, you hate the smallest things. did I say You? I meant Us. Its human nature. I can stop talking to someone for just telling me "Whatever" (Cos I think its very rude), I also think its very rude to see someone and say "see how fat you've become, etc", I also hate being PINGed or BUZZed on my Blackberry or yahoo even though the phone is permanently on silent. Well, as much as I am very Nigerian, I just realised my mum has this very British thing about her where she feels there are some things you just shouldn't do or say and she has put it in all her kids. We still tell her that she is too specific. However, this has made me see things differently of late.

We all have our little things, I have a couple of friends who have these little things which I think (or I thought) are totally senseless. I know someone who hates being told "Hey" but prefers "Good morning", I have another friend who hates when I say "aii" instead of "Alright" or "yup" instead of "yes", I remember some naija big man giving someone stick for saying hi to him rather than hello (on the phone). He went all ballistic asking her (The receptionist) if he was her mate. Someone kept malice with me for a full day just cos I playfully sent her the BBM "talk to the hand smiley" after she had warned me previously. Once again I found it totally shocking that these little things mean so much to all these people. Then it hit me...

You don't have to understand everything, we just have to learn to respect people and their "Little Things". We expect people to respect our little things, but how much do we want to respect theirs? We've lost a couple of friends just because they warned us about this little things which we ignore and in return this slowly pushed them away. Have you ever wondered why some people are very close to you and slowly you find that you guys don't even talk any more? Its those little things. I know someone who keeps sleeping off when we chat at night but is that reason to be mad? NO! Its hard but I'm learning to cut people some slack and respect them. You don't need to agree with some people but you may as well mind your business, you don't need to understand but you could compromise. Maybe relationships will last longer if we pay attention to these little things.

I said 2009 was better than 2010, I lied, no year is totally easy, I dint lose any close family member in 2010, I had good health (Until last week), I had so many second chances in 2010, I got closer to some friends and lost some...and in 2010 I met "HER" (for the amebo people).... In 2010 #iBlend happened and I met the loveliest and crazy people ever. "2010 (was) my year of the Thought"... In 2010 I learnt to that the little things could make or break you.

(9:23am... I've got a train to catch in an hour)

Have a Merry Christmas and a fruitful New Year.

Randomly Yours,

24th December 2010

Ps, Ignore the typos, I've got a train to catch and proof reading my rambling gets torturous as I end up deleting everything. Cheers

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

"SORRY"... Random Rambling Series!!!

I hurt her and I really feel guilty, I literally used her and I knew it from the start that I would do that but I was so attracted to her booty that I really couldn't be bothered if I'd be breaking her heart when I walked away...


Now that I've got your attention, I love words, I'm a coward and I cant call names or be specific with my blog and so I just ramble randomly with the hope that someone may actually read it to the end and maybe pick a line that may make sense to them. I use my readers as a psychological experiment and I'm sorry. Am I? Maybe not. THIS IS A SHORT AND 100% RANDOM ONE

On a serious note though, I don't feel like a wicked or unforgiving person when I say "sorry" or "thank you" are the most overrated words sitting next to "Love" in the dictionary called Life. I made a very foolish decision while booking my ticket to naija in May and that decision is here to haunt me in December. I take full responsibility and I was just whining about it to a friend and she said "you made your decision". In my head it almost translated to funk off, mumu boy... actually it dint, I was saving N20k and I got a fixed ticket instead of flexible one (and I really have no regrets). The funny part was that after giving me a bullocking about my choice, she said "PELE" (Sorry) and it immediately calmed me. I realised the calming effect I got from being told sorry and I shook my head and said "Shame on you Andy". That word sorry influenced this random rambling which is actually about YOU!!!

My last post was titled WHO CARES, I've thought about it objectively and most times the things we claim not to care about are the things we care about the most. I claim not to be bothered with a lot of issues like apologies and appreciation but I just figured that maybe I do. Maybe its ok to want to feel appreciated and maybe its a mental sign of surrender when people say they are sorry. Its an admission of guilt, remorse and or defeat amongst many other things. But seriously why would someone hurt you so bad and come up to you, keep a straight or sad face and say "Sorry" and that alone can bring a smile to our faces...C'mon, there's got to be more to it. Well there isn't. Your partner cheats on u, you catch them and they come back later and say sorry and everything is fine. "Sorry" may as well be nature's Jazz (Voodoo). Sorry is a start, its a means of showing emotions, sorry and thank you may as well be Verbal kisses.

We expect to much from the next man and sometimes we give too much. But asides being to inquisitive and wanting an answer to everything in life, maybe we should just accept things as they are. We cant know the answers to all the "why's" in life, Andy would never know why sorry means so much to us and why one word can wipe away a millions hurting thoughts and a mind stained with anger. Does this mean we shouldn't be sorry cos it's just a word? But hey, they say in pidgin "na "no" de cause fight".

It may just be a word but sometimes, "SORRY" is all we need to hear.

I've got a lot to write but the winter freezes my brain and turns down my randomness, my duvet is calling my name like a nude lingerie model in its own way its telling me sorry about the cold weather....and yes I will succumb...scroll back to the 1st paragraph where I broke her heart, cos I walked away you?

Randomly yours
Dec 2010